ugh

This flu is totally kicking my ass. My back and shoulders hurt so bad from repetitive explosive sneezes sneaking up on my that i find it hard to relax in just about any position. I felt better for a while today, but it’s starting to kick me again, and I just want to curl up in a corner and watch stupid movies. And I might just do that later. Right now, the girl and her friends have control. heh.

I’ve always been that parent that is very lacadasical about field trips – I trust the teachers and have no problem sending my kiddo off for a day with them. Until today. I had no problem signing up the pup, and getting her up early and heading into the store for a new hat. Then i saw miss E, who had just found out about kevin, and it hit me a bit. Then I had to drop off my child at the ungodly hour of 6:45am to spend all damn day away from me and out of contact. Out of town. I…. didn’t like it. At all. I hadn’t slept at all until this morning, and then I found myself lashed to my cell phone just in case. It was odd – I’ve never felt that off about them before, but I know it’s because some part of me was thinking that…. i’d sent my husband out of town, and he didn’t come back.

Irrational, I know. And I berated myself for it all day. but I didn’t like it. No one was happier then me to see the busses pull up and unload at 7pm tonight, at which time I greated the pup with a lollipop and listened to everything she’d done and seen and promptly wished she’d be quiet. *L* Oy. That child can talk! I spent two years teaching her to walk and talk, now all I want her to do is sit down and shut up. *L*

So yeah. tired, grumpy, unsettled, sick, and tired. did I mention tired? Yes.

Night.