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….sorta. There are signs of live in the Big Brother House once again.

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Jordan’s been doing the dishes and cleaning up in the kitchen, while Jeff naps on the patio. Lydia and Chima are awake and moving now.

Lydia; like, me n Kevin would go up and sit down to talk, and eveyrone would leave.
Chima: I guess you should ask them…
Lydia: I was just wondering if you knew anything big, ya know?

Chima’s taking a shower, Lydia’s doing her nails, Michele’s freshening up her makeup, and best of all… Jeff’s up and cooking in the kitchen.

8:30 BEER!

8:47 – Green room
Whisper session with jessie/Natalie/Chima
Jessie; we don’t want her to use the Veto – one of us might go up. We just need her to vote our way..

Chima: I forgot to tell you guys, that Kevin and Lydia asked me why you were being weird toward them. I told them to ask you.

Outside the talk is about the comp, Michele is basking in her POV winning glory as they go over the counts for various thing. Russell is proud papa – having seen Ronnie’s face when she won.

Jordan: WHAT? they were REAL rats?!
Jeff: yeah, I told you..
Michele: I think some of them were dead – male rats fight. It was funny though, there was so much room and they were all pressed up against the sides. I was like guys, come on.

— General convos – and I’m gonna power nap for a while, now that my nephew is on his way home..

11:43 – uh, that turned into quite the power nap, huh? I got back in time for the conversation between russell and michele that i didn’t want to miss though!

🙂

Russell: He keeps lying, and I’m like he’s obviously trying spin things, and I cant…
Michele: I know! He was lying to me, and if he was like what’s you’re idea of an alliance? You want me to go to bat for you and be a part of an alliance, but you won’t admit the alliance exists? How am I supposed to believe you?
Russell: He plays schemantics. And I might have been the meanest, I was also the nicest. I brought him food.
Michele: He lied to us about that too, we heard.. Oh! You should hear the crap story he tried to spin last night… he had like 100 friends when he was 18 that he talked to every day – who talks to 100 people ever day?! – he was like then something happened and I have no friends so you can’t send me home.
Russell: Seriously? Wow. You know, I don’t have a final two with anyone, I expect to go home every week, that’s why I play to win. I’ve won 3/7, and could have won today, but you pulled it out, I was close. I always expect it. I mean, I didn’t have to tell you anything, but I did. I have agreements, but no final deal. I’m glad we’re working together and we’ll take it as far as you want. I mean, Ntalie and Jessie are a team, Natalie and Chima – did you see that crap? I’m not her fucking boyfriend, I’ll flirt with whoever I want!
Michele: yeah yeah. And I like talking to you.
Russell: Yeah, like all the crap that they talk, poop and farts and Chima was up here talking about some millionaire she dated, and I don’t care, you know? She was all you wanna host, and she was like wanting to audition. So I’m down for me and you, I don’t think anyone would even think that.
Michele: Yeah, and you know, your animosity with Jeff has eased, and that’s good, he’s strong too.
Russell: Exactly, he’s a good guy. He and I bonded a bit up here last night, and we squashed it. He said he didn’t really believe me until he saw my pictures and heard about my dad, and so we squashed it. And we talked and I was like I got nothing against you, and I’d like to work with him, and Jessie and Natalie will cut me for sure.
MIchele: yeah, and I know they wanted to get rid of me.
Russell: yeah, like the fake alliance, they’re all like this…
Michele: yeah and he was like We didn’t send you home, and I’m all I wasn’t going home so thanks for doing nothing for me! I’m an idiot..
Russell: You’re so smart, and you played that game smart today too!
Michele: Thanks. You know, some of those games aren’t how to win, but how to be a non-loser.
Russell: yeah, I had to stay in as long as Ronnie was an..
Michele: were you worried about Jessie?
Russell: yeah, a little bit. If you think about me and you? You can’t put two stronger people and smarter people on the same.
Michele: Yeah, I’m like – this is week 5 and this is exactly where I wanted to be. To be honest, my moves have been strategic, even my vote with Chima, it made people have to court me and let me pick whoever i want to work with.
Russell: Smart. That’s really smart.
Michele: I’m a little pissed off about the female Ronnie nickname..
Russell: they heard you that?

Michele: when he was HOH, he was like you have to befriend Russell, which to me meant I shouldn’t.. and you were the person he tried to pit me aginst, and after the HOH deal I was like, I’ll just back off for a while.
Russell: I gave him my word, stabbed me in the back, and I don’t deal with that. I gave Jeff my word, and one of the tells is I put his key first.
Michele: yah, Jeff andJordan have never spilled anything I’ve told them, not that I talk much game with anyone.
Russell: exactly, they’re good people. And Natalie and Jessie, I just know they’ll cut me. I don’t think CHima’s as strong as me, Jessie’s not as strong as me..
Michele: You remove ROnnie and it’s over for Jessie.
Russell: He lobbied for him hard. And I’m like when you win, you put up whoever you want. And I told him, vote how you want, and I will come after you.
Michele: and he knows my feelings of Ronnie, and he was like you can be in our alliance, and I was like if Ronnie wasn’t in it… and it was a threat, be in our alliance or nothing. He gave me a choice of who to put up, and I ws like Ronnie, and he’d tell me how stupid I was for wanting him out.
Russell: I was like dude, I know you’re with Ronnie… I can see him reporting back every day.
Michele: and you want a smart person, I can do everything Ronnie could have done.
Russell: And you’re far stronger. This was a game today that he should have outsmarted all of us!
Michele: Exactly, unless he has the power, he fucked himself.
Rusell: exactly, and when I went up 2-0, I just sat on it. I knew Ronnie or Jessie couldn’t win.
Michele: and people are asking me my vote, since I’m the swing vote, and I’m like nope.
Russell: Jessie and them?
Michele: yeah.
Russell: and we can’t win if we get to final two with any of them if Ronnie’s in the jury house. But I’m down. Me and you, I’ll give you my word – and I gave it to Jeff and you know my word is good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I’m willing to die for it, but I play to win, not to skate by.
Michele: and yeah, I’d rather go out with my dignity, and other people have been trying to bully me and I’m not having it.
Russell: was it yesterday? That Jessie and them?
Michele: Yeah, everyone was asking me yesterday, they’re all do what’s best for me..
Russell: I hate that! what’s best for me is them leaving. Go!
Michele: yeah, I don’t need anyone to tell me what’s best for me.
Russell: And people – if you have this opportunity, remember that if you hear something about me? Just ask me… because at one point, everyone had fed me such bullshit, my head was spinning, you start to believe it for a while, so you have to step back..
Michele: yeah, and they told me you were after me and such.
Russell: and if you get HOH? Tell me who you want out, and I’m for it. I mean to be honest, the only people I trust are Jeff and Jordan
Michele: and me
Russell: yeah, and you, of course, you’re sitting up here and they’re out there right now, and its.. you know, it’s they’re HONEST. Even Chima wanted me out…
Michele: and there’s that one common denominator, Ronnie is scared at you.
Russell: and everyone loves Jessie. I didn’ even watch him last year.

He talks about Chima being mad because he “flirted with [her] friend!” in the comp today. She was all ‘I’ll give you her number and you can fuck her then!’ and Russell was like ok!

Jessie and Natalie go to play chess, and Jessie pops his head into the HOH, to check who’s in there. They laugh about it after he goes, and they talk about things like Jessie praying at the table, and how Natalie’s started doing it too. Ronnie’s reading the Bible, and saying he’s not really religious. And back to the competition

Michele: And he was always going on about how the HOH was physical, it wasn’t his game. Well there was your mental challenge dude. I won.

12:23 – Jeff/Jordan cuteness in the posh room! They’re chatting about missing Casey.

Upstairs, they’re talking about Kevin and Lydia. Both are laying on the bed, the conversation is open and friendly. This is the Michele we’ve been waiting for – all game all day, and she’s really been paying a lot more attention than ANYONE gave her credit for! You go girl!

Downstairs – kevin and Lydia have been talking in the spa. hey’re calculating votes, and Kevin says he needs an excuse to put up Jessie, needs him to break the contract first. They bash Jessie and Natalie – Lydia says she and Jessie fooled around while Natalie was in the bed, and she’d freak. Kevin tells her to get close to Michele, and that Michele told him she’s bipolar.

12:42 Upstairs –
Russell: no one else knows this anymore. I’ll tell you a secret.
Michele: Ok, maybe I’ll tell you one.
Russell: I made a final two with Casey, day two. He was the only one. We bonded over shit, and we have similar personalities. And we got along really well. I promised never to put him up, and never vote against him, and he said fine. He told Laura about our deal, and I confronted him and that’s when I knew it was off. That was week two, and it was between me him and Laura to go home. But um – Laura came up here and yelled at all of them that night? And told them I had a deal with Casey and Jessie confronted me about it and I said it was done because clearly I couldn’t trust him. And this is the secret – that one vote? That was me. You know why?
Michele: You wanted to start shit? (She’s giggling)
Russell: No, it’s because I gave him my word. I”m still a good kid – so I was the one vote.
Michele: wow! Who was the wonky vote for Laura?
Russell: I don’t know, but I think it was him.
Michele: my secret? I have a PHD.
Russell: I knew that! I knew you were a higher education, it was obvious from some things you said about research…
Michele: Yeah, I try to watch it..

11:45 She can’t name the school, Peta concerns, and she finished her PHD really fast. She took the full 4 for BC, and then finished the PHD early – it normally takes 6-7 years, she got hers in 4.5. Russell tells her that he’s considering going back to get his MBA. They’re bonding. She fears public speaking – she’s much better at writing. Then she says the school anyway – and she’s tells him she’s a Neuroscientist, and he’s asking questions. She tells him about her husband, how they broke up in college and got together. He shares his story too. It’s an excellent conversation! He even tells her his uncle ran for president in Lebenon

Michele: Dude, Russell. You might be the coolest person I know.

1:15 Downstairs – Bathroom, Jeff/Lydia/Kevin
Jeff: you have the votes. She keeps it the same and you have the votes.

He keeps giving her shit, it’s cute.

Jeff; Hey. watch that tone! I’m gonna be the Tone Ranger.
Lydia: You’re gonna be all over me..
Jeff: yeah. A pancake. My feet hurt. get on that. Take care of that bunion..
Lydia: (makes face, laughs)

1:25 – getting a lot of extended Fish…

Still bonding in HOH, while Natalie and Jessie silently play chess. Can hear laughter downstairs.

Natalie and Jessie are done playing chess, and Michele and Russell are still bonding. It’s worrying Natalie.

Natalie: We should go up. It could be our downfall. It’s fucking two oclock in the morning! If we go in there, she’ll leave…
Jessie: and the sooner we walk in there, we’re gonna have to cover our bases, its not worth Ronnie being here. We tell him that she came to us to keep Ronnie here.
Natalie: She might not be saying anything…
Jessie: if we don’t go up there…
(someone’s coming, she goes to the bathroom, he washes his hands)

Jessie: Here’s what we do – (Natalie turns on the water and I can’t hear. *L*) What I’m saying is, we might be fucked, we need to go up there and tell him she came to us to keep Ronnie here, and tell him we’ll have your back next week. If we go up there and play like nothings wrong? He’ll know! I could get up and get send home, she’s the swing vote.
Natalie: right before she went upstairs with you, we’ll tell him that, and that she asked us for protection, and that’s why she’s been up there with you. But she might not be saying anything?
Jessie: Maybe, but why the fuck is she still thre? He’s not that interesting, neither is she! You don’t sit there and talk to someone for 2.5 hours to someone you don’t talk to game. There’s a small window for us to cut our losses. Here she comes.
— Lessa: Oh, paranoia… sometimes they ARE out to get you, Jessie… just not yet.

1:58
Russell tells them they can come up…

Jessie: We played 2 fucking grueling games of chess, and what was that?
Russell: she’s keeping it the same!
Jessie: Quite the convo for keeping the same…
Russell: She’s gonna fuck with him this week
Jessie: who?
Russell: Ronnie. He made her life a living hell. She’s gonna fuck with him. I straight up asked her, you know, what are you thinking? And it’s like pulling teeth. You have to ask direct questions or she circumvents it and goes around it. I don’t know if she’s scared, or crazy. Jeff thinks she’s crazy.
Jessie: Jeff burned it…
Russell: you think that she’s with someone? Or playing alone?
Jessie: Look at it this way – everytime there was a swing vote, it was Dan. She’ll go where the poweris.
Russell: you think she’s doing Dan’s way?
Jessie: She only talks to you when you have power you know? It’s as clean as that, you told her what to do.
Russell: the perfect thing is, that if she takes Ronnie off, then we know where she stands and we know we have her vote if she leaves him there.
Jessie: Again, going back to Dan – anyone in her position wouldn’t take him off. It’s her and Ronnie that we’d be going after.
Russell: Ronnie’s going home.
Jessie: exactly. It’s that simple. WHen she whens HOH, she can put up who she wants.
natalie: and kevin was like – I feel distance with you and Jessie, what’s up? And I was like nothing’s up, I’m tired and JEssie’s on slop and he was all I think next week the four of us should band together and make a strong move and get the strong people out….
Russell: Huuuuuuum! HUuuuuuum!
Jessie: When he says band together he means piggy back another week.
Natalie; that was it
Jessie: yeah, same thing he said to me. He was all I’m so sick of losing, and I’m thinking, dude, you have to try to win.

Russel: He wants to just skate by
Jessie: not if I have anything to say about it.
Natalie: I think he has that power. I really do. He’s acting…
Jessie: I’m like it’s no way that America would do that! It’s Jordan or Jeff
Natalie; he’s acting like he fucking has it…
Jessie: no, he’s a fucking diva.

Natalie: So I was outside putting in the last load of laundry, and Ronnie came out and was all can you talk to Russell, I think something was misunderstood, and I don’t hold grudges and I want Jeff and Jordan out and I told him to talk to you and he said that he didn’t think you’d be up here, and so yeah
Russell: dude, it’s too little too late. I know what I fucking heard. He knows he’s screwed, he’s making one last attempt.

They bitch about Kevin – who apparently ate grapes during the competition, and more bitching the slop, etc. If Kevin was up, jessie says sorry, I’d vote for him..
Jessie: Someone gave Ronnie a sympathy vote! SORRY that was me! I voted for Kevin!
Natalie: good thing you didn’t put Kevin up against Ronnie!

Jessie: You talked forever!
Russell: he’s such a slow talker… you know she says something, and there’s that awkward silence? Yeah.
Jessie: I dind’t know she was up here!
Russell: I wish you would have, it was fucking unbearable!
Jessie: then we came in and she jumps off the bed to grab candy and I’m like whoooooa…

–Lessa: Russell’s doing a good job of appeasing them, and telling them nothing at all. Excellent gameplay. I hate to be impressed by the love muscle, buuuuuuuuuut ya know… I kinda am.

2:39 – Natalie corners Michele
Michele: I don’t want Ronnie in the Jury house, you know? I mean Lydia isn’t the best either, but I think Ronnie’s going to be bitter. I know it’d be a decision that hurts you and Jessie, but..
Natalie: I’m thinking continuing on another week, not jury house, not yet. It doesn’t matter till the end.. how can we win and get by to the next week, and then start thinking who..
Michele: You have to win HOH, and trust in yourself, really. He had a chance to win, you know?
Natalie: Alliance wise? Him and Jessie have proven himself worthy because they have both won HOH. I technically won the first one…
— Lessa: let it go! Russell says the same thing. Seriously, she’s such a poor loser…

Michele: there’s just no reason strategically for him to be here…
Natalie: you think Lydia can help you more than he can?
Michele: I don’t think she has a grudge against me. There’s baggage.
Natalie: I know that Ronnie would listen to Jessie. Lydia won’t. And Kevin.

Natalie: I’m going for Lydia. That’s who I’m voting for. And then I’m going for Kevin. IF they stay in, they’ll win. Ronnie won’t win this game. NO one will vote for him to win. Ronnie’s always here, he’s a target as long as he’s here. Next week…
Michele: Why do you assume he’d always be a target?
Natalie: Everyone wants Ronnie out.
Michele: But if Kevin is HOH, would he put Ronnie up?
Natalie: Maybe not. Maybe you and Russell.
Michele: that’s what I’m saying… I just don’t see how keeping him in the house to throw the target off you week after week will work.
Natalie: Next week we’d lose the numbers. This is a numbers game.
Michele: the cliques faded, and you have to keep adapting. He doesn’t work for me. I have to do what’s best for me.
Natalie: I understand, we all have too
Michele: I know that I’m upsetting people, the three of you, but it’s in my best interest.
Natalie: I’m not upset, he’s a snake for sure.
Michele: I just can’t spend weeks in the house with him…
Natalie: you think he’s coming after you?
MIchele: I don’t know, I don’t want to be fed garbage. I think with him gone, I’ll have a clear head.

(Ronnie comes in to bitch about the cameras – he woke up and saw them pointed at him)

Michele goes to bed. Natalie waits for Ronnie to get out.
Natalie: she’s not voting for you.
Ronnie: She wants me out?
Natalie: yeah. You should talk to Russell. It might not do any good, but you should talke to him.
Ronnie: she say why?
Natalie: she says her game is better without you here.

Kevin comes in and breaks it up.

They go outside to check laundry
Natalie: SHe’s not gonna vote for you. You’re only chance is to talk with Russell. Offer him anything.
Ronnie: Honestly, if I do go home, I’m ok with it. I’ll be able to start teaching in the fall, it’ll be alright.
Natalie: but just try.
Ronnie: I’ll try tomorrow. And you know, no matter what, she’s not gonna make it to the final two without me. I’m gonna tell her that too. Not voting for me is three more enemies, and you can’t trust russell, so you’re on your own.
Natalie: yeah, and talk to russell – and that the target will remain you as long as your in the house. Just try.
Ronnie: I’d try talking to him now, but he probably won’t talk to me..
Natalie; go on up – don’t tell him I told you anything..

2:54 AM – Ronnie/Russell -HOH.
Ronnie: absolutely no hard feelings on any level. And I did say swear to God – and I absolultely apologize if you took that as an affront. I don’t know… I just how do I say this. Casey did tell me that you were out there. I absolutely shouldn’t have talked to Lydia… I have never gone against you, I’ve never done anything to damage your game in the house. I had three chances – I absolutely want to stay in this house. Even if it goes to vote and I stay, I’m not going after you. People are gonna assum I’m coming after you, and I’m not. I want to stay and I don’t want to leave.

Russell: I want you to know that as a person, I know you re a teacher – I mean, I do apologize if I come across as an asshole. I apologize for yelling at you, no one deserves it, it’s my downfall. So first of I apologize for that, you don’t deserve that, and it’s not indicitive of the person that you are. I just feel like.. I didn’t know what was going on and my head was spinning so much and so many people were saying things, he’s going to backdoor you, and dammit is he setting me up, what’s going on. To be quite honest, I’ll never know until I leave.

Ronnie: I understand, that’s the same kind of tormoil I went through – no matter how many times Jeff, Jorda, Laura and Casey begged me to put you up, I didn’t. I said I was on your team, I don’t care what anyone else says. Even you yelling at me I didn’t take personal. Every action you had done proved yourself, you said you were gonna use the POV week one, week two, I had your back, week three, you said you had my back and I udnerstand that. I know why you put me up, and I don’t even want to know who said what. I want you to know no matter what I’m in this with you, I want Kevin and Lydia out, they’re foaters, and if I get HOH next week, it’s Jeff and Jordan again. And if the team didn’t want that, I’d do what I thought was best for the team and stick with my actions. I don’t know if there’s something we can work out – I’ve been honest, and have continued to be honest. it’d be stupid to be like Lydia and do whatever it takes. But I’ll do anything – if you want me to put up specific people, I’d do that. It’s me you Jessie Natalie and Chima, that’s the team, that’s where my loyalties lie. I feel you honestly know that, even with your speech, if you go on the actions. My actions speak for themselves. Even week one, my loyalties were to you guys… Me staying would be good for you, I’m the first person Jeff and Jordan go after.

Russell: you made some good points – let me sit and marinate on it.
Ronnie: absolutely, I am serious, I want to stay in this house. I’ve proved myself to you – I made horrible enemies in week two. I had no problem doing that, getting blood on my hands. I just really wantanother chance to prove it again even more so, to stick with the team. I appreciate you hearing me out, just tell me what you decide. Really think about Lydia – she’ll say and do anything and has zero loyalties. She’s proved nothing. enxt week there will be someone else up here and she’ll do the same thing to them. But I do not harbor any grudges, I don’t think ill of being nominated, I came into the house knowing you had too be nominated, you’re speech didn’t bother me, I understood where you were coming from, and I’m assuming that you thought I was coming after you and I din’t say that and Kevin and Lydia even said I didn’t say it so it may have been misheard.
Russell: I’ll marinate on it..
Ronnie: and just wanted to apologize for you know, come in and attack a situation and approaching you, and trying to pull you up here when everything blew up, I’m just apologizing, if I hd been more of a man and let the situation lie, and it might not have happened – but I just wanted to come up here.
Russell: I apparecaite it. I do apologize for blowing up, no one deserves that.
Ronnie: I never took it personally. I’ve faced adversity, I understand. I just never said that, and you know, the being shunned, up here, I put my face in my hands, and the emotions are same about the way when I was 18, and something bad happened and I had to start my live over again really, it brought up those emotions, but you know, it just randomly happened. So Anyway, just marninate on it, and know you have an ally in me no matter what.

Natalie/Jessie came in
Natalie; What did I miss?
Russ: I just told him I made a decision, and that it’s just too many lies, and I don’t trust him anymore. I told him I’d think about it, but.
Jessie: You were laughing a lot
Russ: it was his nervous cackle. He knows his stay is over. That’s that. I’m not lying to his face, I’m not backstabbing him. I gave him an opportunity to fight for his chance. I stood up ther eand competed against him. You can respect a person like that.
Natalie; yeah, if I go out I wanna go out the same way.
Jessie: So anyways. Fuck Kevin.
Russ: what’s he doin?
Natalie: talking to Michele
Russ; He’s probably trying rallying the troops. You know Lydia was asking me when I’d break up you two, make a power move, and I’m like shut up, you’re this close to going home… don’t blow it.

More of the same rehash they’ve done before…

Downstairs, in the bathroom – Kevin/Michele chat – she tells him that she won’t use the Veto, and will vote to get Ronnie out. She doesn’t go into further detail. Then move into general personal stuff.

— And that’s it for me tonight – will catch up in the morning. Night!