So.

For anyone who may need to know: When the Social Security office tells you that you will qualify for two months benefits right off the bat – this does not mean you will RECIEVE two months right off the bat. Since they pay “one month behind” That means that you will get last months, this month and this months next month. Yes. confusing? Yes. But, basically it boils down to this; the only reason I received SS benefits for me and the kids this month was because Kevin died the last week of August. Otherwise I’d be out of luck until October. So, while their explanation was confusing, I’m still very glad to have gotten what I did this month because we’re still doing ok. And with Dividends coming in on the 12th, and SS bene’s on the 19th, I can get things paid up a month ahead for the biggies and it’ll all be good.

Course, what would be REALLY good, is if I could get a goddamn death certificate. I mean, really – it’s been almost 4 weeks. And you would think that things could move on a little faster then this? Its a month, and we still don’t know *why* he died, just that he’s gone. Which, granted, is good to know since we already spread his ashes at the wake, but for crissakes! There are things I need to do and I can’t do anything without the death certificate! One, and the biggest one aside from simply *knowing* is getting my house payment reduced. being a “farm home” loan, it goes according to income and as obviously my income is drasically reduced, I can get the payments subsidized again and have something a little easier to deal with instead of the current payment.

Thank goodness for the help the company gave us, as well as the fact that the dividends are coming in next month too, because then I can do the “pay ahead” method on the bills, and then continue that instead of having to work from behind as I always have before. Not exactly the way I wanted to get out of debt, but. well. yeah.

And that’s the OTHER thing. SS benefits are deposited on the third wednesday of every month. The third wednesday. Everything is DUE in the first two weeks of the month, yet I’ll not have money until the third week – what kind of sense does this make? Absofuckinglutely none, really. Another reason the ‘pay ahead’ method will have to be utilized.

I’m in an all around….. blah. today. Just… can’t seem to summon the energy to do much of anything. Randomly surfed around and added links over there to people who managed to get an amused snot or even a grin from me today. Figure if they can amuse me today, then they’re well worth the read. check em out.

Ugh. I feel like my irritation last night and burst of productivity reguarding kenai little league took it all outa me. There’s nothing left, but to sit here and just. stare, or something.

So uh. Yeah. Feel free to stare along.