AUGH!

AAAAAAAARGH!

I tried, Kevin. I did. I did just as you’d want me to do to protect them. I found out what she tried to tell him, I blocked her email, and then – then I transferred the protection mantle I’ve shouldered for almost 15 years to his wife. I was unsure about it, I thought maybe I should just leave well enough alone, and protect from behind the scenes, but I knew it wasn’t going to be enough. So I did what should be done.

And he shit on the efforts. He wants her in his life, and I can do nothing about it. Nothing. SO I wash my hands of that stupid fucking cunt. He’s a big boy. Eventually he’ll realize what I’ve done all these years for you. Eventually he’ll realize that fucking cunt will only hurt him, and his children. God knows he shuold know that allready, but he’s clinging to your wish for peace. There will be no peace with that bitch. I tried to tell you that. I protected you so much more tehn you ever realized, and I tried to do the same for him.

But he doesn’t want that, and Cindy has no idea what she’s getting herself into in letting this happen. I warned them. I warned them both. But they’re adults, and their choice is what matters.

But she sets one fucking foot anywhere in Alaska, she comes anywhere near our kids, and there will be hell to pay. I’ve blocked a lot of shit from that cunt for fifteen years. I will for as long as the kids need me too. I refuse to allow her even a toe hold inside. She is NOT their grandmother. She is not even on the birth certificate since the adoption with Gramma Jan.

They’ll have to fight thier own battles now. They don’t want me to. I feel like I’ve just slammed into a rigidly closed and locked door. So I wash my hands of it. of her. PRotections gone. Done. Overwith.

Fuck that cunt. Someday – she’ll get hers, and I will be the one cheering the loudest and longest. Any woman who’d marry the man who molested her kids -after finding out about it. Any woman who would throw her son from a 2nd story window. Any woman who would try to ruin the image of a man idiolized by his brother by spouting “facts” taht she could not possibly have in an effort only to hurt him while he grieves? Deserves every fucking fucked up thing she gets in this life and what will come afterwards. She spouts her “God loves me and knows I did no wrong” so often she believes it. Fuck that. I don’t. I won’t.

But they want me out.

So i’m out. I’m done. I can’t protect everyone. I can only protect my kids. And that’s exactly what I will continue to do.

FUCK I’M SO FUCKING PISSED! AAAAAAAARGH!